I am sometimes placed in a situation where I need to make a quick decision as to how much I am willing to put myself out there for someone else. These people are usually strangers before they stepped into our center. They are almost always women who are in situations that make everything rumble inside of me as I hear their story unfold. The conversations are always time sensitive. Each word I say must always count.
By nature (and a bit of nurture) I am a critical thinker first, a feeler second. I very rarely allow my emotions to trump my thoughts. When feelings do bubble up inside, I tend to trust them automatically on the simple understanding that if my feeling can override my thought process, it should be right. ( I am not openly recommending this to everyone, as I know only myself. Everyone has their own way of handling themselves, because we are all different! Please understand this.) I tend to think of it more as a woman’s intuition thing. In many situations, a Holy Spirit thing. So when I feel the desperate need to open my heart and give with my hands to those in need, I do it without question.
But then the time comes afterward when I think back on the things I gave (my personal phone number, a commitment of extra work, the promise of a safe haven in crisis…) and I start to think about my other responsibilities. The safety of my family. The approval of my husband. My actual ability to do all of my responsibilities well. I know I did the right thing, but afterward I can easily be tempted by my own thoughts of regret, even though I KNOW I did what was right.
After a similar situation, I took a quick mental break and checked a few blogs that I often frequent. This Post on Like A Warm Cup of Coffee met me and I just soaked it in for a second. The questioning thoughts disappeared. It was exactly what I needed to hear in that moment. Isn’t that wonderful? It very rarely happens to me, but when it does.. it just amazes me! I hope that the simple and truthful post fills you up as well. After reading it I actually wrote “Human Flesh Despises True Love” on my calendar under my keyboard at work. What a great reminder to see every time I set an appointment or search for a client name.